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Tuesday, August 05, 2008

Chp 191. Girl, why have you forsaken me?

Have you ever had that feeling… when you suddenly realized there is a deep connection and understanding between you and somebody you’ve known for a long time?

Funny feeling, right?

I mean, for a long time she is just a friend, somebody you regularly correspond with over the Net… somebody you could always count on as a friend who’s always there when you need her the most. Sometimes you even end up taking her for granted because you are so used to her benevolence…

And then suddenly… WHAM! It hits you right in the face!



How could I have been so blind all these time? She was there for me when I dropped out of college… when I broke up with my ex… I found comfort and solace within her… She was there through all the difficult times I went through, and she never failed me.

She mails me regularly… just as she promised to do many years ago. She’s the reason why I am what I am today. She updates me with everything I need to know, right from news back in Mizoram, to the latest gossip in the celebrity circle.

She said she didn’t want me to be out of touch with important news just because I went through a rough patch, or because I was disconnected from my friends and family back home.

Finally I mustered enough courage to take our relationship to the next level. I didn’t want to be miserable for the rest of my life… I knew I ran the risk of spoiling everything we had, but as the saying goes, it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.

I use gmail.

So one fine day, I took a deep breath and replied to one of her emails. I expressed my complete raw uninhibited honest feelings for her, all in one go, and waited fervently for her reply…

She never did.



Maybe I crossed the line, I don’t know. Maybe she got psyched out. A part of me was cursing the same me for screwing up a very wonderful relationship.

I stopped receiving her emails for sometime.

That was my darkest 48 hours. It was then that I realized how lonely I was without her. Like that old 90s soft-rock Cinderella song, “you don’t know what you got, till it’s gone”, I came to see how pathetic my life was without her.

I missed her so much. I looked at all her old emails in my inbox, re-read them, and enjoyed each and every mail with extreme gratification.

And then suddenly, she started mailing me again. She never mentioned about my mail, but we both understood some things were best left unsaid.

After a few days, our relationship was (almost) back to normal.

In gmail, there is an option of inviting somebody for a chat if he or she is using a Google affiliated email account. Being the stubborn guy that I am, I could not go on without explaining to her about why I sent her that first email…

I invited her for a chat at gtalk and even added her on my chat list…




It’s been more than a month now and she still hasn’t accepted my invitation. I know, this sucks, but I would be so extremely grateful if she gives me the chance to explain…

That is why I have no other option but to publish about this incident on my blog with screenshots of my action as proof, in the hope that my plight might soften her heart a bit and that she would accept me as a chat friend at gtalk.

I keep my hope alive…


[Picture Gallery]

Here is me inviting her for a chat…




And here is me adding her on my “friends list” at gmail.




Finally, here is the woman of my dreams, still not accepting my invitation.







32 comments:

aduhi said...

Lol..maybe she was a "he" all along and didnt want you getting too close..Anyways that was a good one.

illusionaire said...

Reasons why I believe Google Alerts is a girl:

1. She "talks" a lot :D

2. She's cold & unresponsive :-)

3. She "tells" me only those stuff other people already "talked" about. Nothing original.

*GRIN*

Samaw said...

Pen some beautiful poems for her once more. Perhaps she will respond with tears this time. Internet has truly changed our lives, it will never be the same again! An interesting post...

Phoenix said...

I dont think it is a great idea to put it one ur blog u know, sm girls would absolutely dislike makin public an issue so touchy, which is trying not to confront n fight over, for her own reasons whatever they maybe. You have to give her her time, space and reasons, methinks.

Banno said...

This was a wonderful story. What a twist!

Sekibuhchhuak said...

hehe..Chuan in ni chhunzawm zel dawn ta em? Hetiang nula hi chu keipawh ka duh zawng tak, an thikthu pawh a chhe lo deuh ang ;-D

illusionaire said...

@ samaw: lolz. Yup, the Internet has indeed changed our lives. Most of the stuff people write these days are all net-related too...

@ phoenix: I'm guessing that was you in sarcasm mode :-)

@ banno: lolz. Thanx. Yeah I got a couple of calls too from friends who were like... who's this girl I'm talking about... until they all came to the last para and they're like, bastaaaard! :-D

@ seki: Thikthu chu chhelo ve tak a ni, a confi ve hrim hrim a, amah bak midang hi ka "melh" dawn lo tih a hria a... :-D

Lucy said...

Son of a Gun......:D

Mos said...

she's not worth it. i dated googlealerts for a year and all we did was click on google ads. it just didnt work out.

Mos said...

samaw didnt get it :)

Tia said...

Darn! Been following your blog since a friend forwarded the link couple of weeks back. Thought this sappy tale was a slight digression from the usual cracks... completely missed the subtle message in the screen shots. Hilarious! Loved your "Priya" post in your "Love as it is" series too..

Samaw said...

@Mos, you said, "I dated googlealerts for a year and all we did was click on google ads."

You are the kind of one they really wanted to have as the alert subscriber. They must have missed you that you left. Google have lost someone who could generate more funds for them.

Didn't the one who actually didn't get is revealed by the comment? :)

Most net savvy guys know Big G alert.

Thanks for your attention to my comment though!

VaiVa said...

Pity u 'Samaw' :-) hey.. Kim, that's not fair though emotional enough to fool a FOOL like me (& Samaw lolz!) who couldn't finished till the bottom line.

Better pull up your socks. I'd be more than happy to hear other than G for Google thing, like you know, G for 'Gori'- office gori! :-)

Samaw said...

@Vaiva, let's see who will have the last laugh! I'm ready :)

illusionaire said...

Lolz @ Vaiva, Mos and Samaw :-) You guys have a good sense of humour. Nice to read comments like yours after a hard day's work. Thanx!

@ Tia: hehehe... Maybe "Priya" will return if I ever come up with a "Love as one sees it" part 3 :-) I do hope you visit regularly to catch that post...

@ Lucy: :-) I love twisting at the end, but my friends now say that has made me predictable when they read "unlikely" posts like this :-(

vana said...

yey youre strong, man, beat it. hehe.

Calliopia said...

With all due apologies to the tale and the twist in the end and the wise guys and despos who have dated her etc, may I bring your attention to "...she updates me with everything I need to know, right from news back in Mizoram, to the latest gossip in the celebrity circle."

Hey I didn't know guys read gossip on celebs. Tsk tsk, Cosmo fluffed this one here bigtime..

*shakes head sadly*

Almost Unreal said...

brave kima..lol

illusionaire said...

@ vana: :-P Google Alerts-i tan hian "I will survive" tih hla ka dedicate dawn :)

@ calliopia: Meet the Metrosexual :-D

@ Almost: Inluah tur zawng reng Biteii. lolz.

:-P

DayDreamBeliever said...

And here we have the essential Illusionaire back in place and true to form! Lolzzz

*tearing hair out in frustration*

illusionaire said...

hihihi I'm mighty glad I could make you tear out your hair :-)

3d said...

SandMan..Sandman...after all the experience and wisdom a seasoned veteran like you must have gained, You still cry out like that..., Must remind myself not to get involved in these things ( not the girls, the Google thing i mean he...he)

Puii Colney said...

You need more patience...I think she's playing hard to get.. You need to try harder..;)

Kiran said...

Hi Kima,

Came across your blog through a comment you posted on our blog - Blogsarovar. I am commenting on this post because blogger does not provide an "about me tab" or a place to post general comments [:)].

First of all, thanks for your encouraging comments. You guessed right - it did involve quite a bit of research to get all the info :). I was ashamed that I knew the geography of far-away US better than that of North-East India. However, we are out to set this right.

We are also curious about how people in NorthEast perceive places in other parts of India - for example - Mumbai? Bangalore? Rural parts of Kerala or Rajasthan? If you have come across any such article, kindly point us to the post.

Finally, I want to congratulate you on such a well-maintained and relevant blog. Trust me - with "writers' block" being omnipresent, its no mean achievement to publish almost 200 posts - the way you have.

mnowluck said...

hahahahahahaha.. nice twist


Bro u still sleep at work?

Oriana said...

lol...damn u're twisted

Illumination said...

Damn that was a good waste of my precious time, huiz!! but rather entertaining...

toy soldier said...

I think its good that you fall for her,she wont be expecting lots from you:P

illusionaire said...

@ 3d: I know... after all these years, "she" still hurts me, over and over again :)

@ Puii: I will! Impossible is the word found in the dictionary of fools.

As God is my witness, as God is my witness she's not going to lick me. I'm going to live through this and when it's all over, I'll never be lonely again.

Ti kha chuan ka "try harder" deuh hmel tawh em :-D

@ kiran: Please do mail me at silv_kim@yahoo.com if you want to get in touch with me but cannot find a "general comment" section on my blog :)

I write such kind of articles, but if you want a general idea about how people from the NE perceive other places in India, I might be the wrong person to contact because I was brought up outside NE since standard 3. So I do not feel alien at these places and cities like Bangalore, Mumbai, Delhi, H'bad etc are a second home to me after Aizawl. Do contact me for further queries on my mail.

illusionaire said...

@ mnowluck: hehehe... by the way, ur really leaving mumbai for good?

@ oriana: like a transistor. ;-)

@ spikey: I'm glad I could make you waste your precious time. Hehehe. Thanx for the visit bro.

@ toy soldier: Of course she does! She expects a lot from me! Just like how Mos mentioned earlier, she expects to be clicked all the time. At first it sounds kinky, but soon, one gets bored... :-)

mesjay said...

ha ha ha! bfore it came to the end i felt you were up to some trick. good trick.

Tharax said...

Pu-a chu thlamuang taka, hmanhmawh lek lova i thuziak han chhiar hi chu a manhla thin maw le... Kolkata atang chuan inah connection nei hrih si lova duh angin i blog keu hawng hman lova. B'lore a rei lo te cham chhungin kan hawng leh hram2 a, min "disappoint" lem love... :-)